I have decided in all my wisdom, and as part of my physical and mental ‘fitness’ journey to sign up for a sponsored walk. Due to the pandemic the walk is completely up to you, how far you walk, how many days it covers, where you walk and how much you want to donate etc, as long as you’re social distancing and being safe.
I’m going to attempt a hilly 10k but may up it to a 15k depending on how my practice/warm up walks go over the next couple weeks. Either one will be a challenge on its own but sometimes I feel like the more you suffer/succeed the better you do on raising money and awareness. I haven’t given myself very long to prepare but I don’t mind that as it’s only a one day event I’m doing and as we work from home now if I need more than 24 hours to recover my laptop can join me on the sofa or upstairs as needed!
I’ve chosen the HOPEWALK because myself and several people close to me have experienced the loss of a loved one through suicide.
If you read my previous (and only other blog so far) I mentioned that I was struggling with suicidal thoughts whilst signed off work with depression earlier this year. What I didn’t say was that one morning I could not process anything more and I started taking all the sleeping pills I’d been prescribed whilst deciding to follow them up with all my antidepressants in the hope this would flip the switch on all the hurt and the confusion and I wouldn’t have to feel all the bad things anymore.
Thankfully (please don’t do anything like that there is always help out there I promise) I told someone what I was doing as the shock set in, I hadn’t taken too much of anything to do any lasting damage and I got the help I needed. My GP and local mental health team were both extremely supportive, didn’t judge me and didn’t make me feel stupid, and followed up with me for a little while until they felt I was not a risk to myself or anyone else.
I can’t imagine how my loved ones would’ve felt had I not reached out for help, and it breaks my heart that I even considered it. However, depression is real, anxiety is real.. people get these thoughts and sometimes there is no clear reason for it. There doesn’t have to be a trigger, a catastrophe doesn’t have to have taken place for someone to start struggling or for things to spiral out of control.
Anyway, this is all to say that I am doing this to honour those that felt they had no other choice, to raise awareness, and to help get the right support for those who so desperately need it.
HOPEWALK is a PAPYRUS event that takes place every October to raise vital funds for suicide prevention and to smash the stigma around suicide.
Suicide is the biggest killer of young people under 35 in the UK. PAPYRUS is the national charity for the prevention of young suicide and believes that many young suicides are preventable. They operate HOPELINEUK, a confidential call, text, and email helpline for young people with thoughts of suicide or those concerned about a young person who may have thoughts of suicide. Every £5 raised can help pay for a potentially life-saving contact to HOPELINEUK from a young person wanting to stay safe from their thoughts of suicide.