Affirmations

Does anyone else feel silly doing these? Maybe it’s because it’s so new to me but it can be oddly confronting, telling yourself you deserve good things, that you can do the things you want to, get what you want out of life.

But, I am going to try and keep it up.

We forgot to read our card and take the picture before we went downstairs for the day, so I ran up and grabbed the next one from the pile and voila!

‘The power to change my life lives within me’ – I mean, I get it, you could argue this one. There are things outside of our control, sure. But! There are lots of things we can do.

I had a job that I enjoyed, friends at work, but I wasn’t paid what I should have been and was bullied by my manager. I let that slide for a while because I felt like it must have just been me overthinking things, but when other people started commenting on the way I was treated or spoken to compared to everyone else I realised this was a genuine issue.

I tried raising the issue but I was pretty firmly told that by bringing it up I was being unprofessional and causing drama, so how could I expect to be taken seriously? I was told my manager was a lovely, caring person who would be mortified to know I thought such things about them.

After being told all of the above BS I ended up having a couple days off due to my mental health, and when I returned I was told to drop it, that the company would help me if I had an actual health issue (anxiety and depression isn’t a real issue apparently) but otherwise they expected me to just get on with it and stop causing trouble.

I made the decision to start looking for a new job, and I had a chat with my partner about potentially taking a lower position, with a lesser salary, with the intention I could do whatever training and upskilling I wanted and work my way up in a company that felt right for me.

Thankfully, I was offered the two positions I went for in companies I felt reflected me and my values, and I happily accepted one of the positions and handed my notice in!

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‘I have courage to be the happiest version of myself’ – I like this one.

It does take courage to be happy, truly happy. Because you do have to put the work in, like I did above. Like I’m trying to do now. The life you want doesn’t just fall into your lap, it would be great if it did sure, but working on yourself, liking yourself, it’s work.

Not a lot of work for some people, they have that natural confidence or x factor or whatever you want to call it. But it is a lot of work for me, and I have to take the risk and do the work to get there, and stay there for the most part. Life, health, relationships.. nothing is permanent, everything changes, I’m always going to have ups and downs, good days and bad, but I am working towards making those good days even better, and coping with the bad ones in a much healthier way when I can.

“Having courage does not mean that we are unafraid. Having courage and showing courage mean we face our fears. We are able to say, ‘I have fallen, but I will get up.'” ~ Maya Angelou

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5 thoughts on “Affirmations

  1. Wow, great job switching jobs!! I wholeheartedly approve, and I hate it when people at work are bullies! My dad’s an employment lawyer, so he represents people who were poorly treated at work all the time. It’s so wrong. I really think you did the right thing!! YAY! Way to rock that affirmation!!

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