It’s over!

The first week of work and the new year is over. So in my last post I said how happy I was that I’d managed to get up after my alarm went off, and shower before work. The intention is to do this as often as possible (within reason). When you only get a few […]

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I’m baaack!

I was really nervous about what to write, but I realised I don’t have to give the in’s and out’s if I don’t want, or apologise for my absence as I was doing what was best for me, and I hope you know that you can do that too.

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Honeymoon Hopewalk

Today is the last day of my honeymoon, and as I said previously I wanted to do my Hopewalk here this year. I’ve actually only left the cabin twice all week because wouldn’t you know it the day before we went away I became quite ill and have been either sleeping or coughing my way […]

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Running out of steam.

I think it’s important both mentally and physically for me to remember to take my time, and rest when my body needs it, especially after going through so much the last year or so or I’ll only end up hurting myself again.

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So happy I didn’t succeed.

Eighteen months ago I tried to overdose on sleeping pills and antidepressants so that everything would stop. Six months ago I broke down. I got diagnosed with PTSD and opened up about my trauma for the first time. I’m not going to say life is sunshine and rainbows now because it isn’t.. well sometimes it […]

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Positive Affirmations

Do I deserve good things? Some days I get mad that I would even need to consider this, of course I do, doesn’t everyone.. But in the cold light of day, and the heavy dark that the night brings with it, it’s much easier to believe that I don’t. To lean into, and even rely […]

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Showering is hard these days.

So, I’ve had a shower for the first time since Sunday. Is that gross? Sure. Did I smell? Absolutely. Does knowing that change anything? No, depression doesn’t care, and you pretty much just feel worse cause you know you’re being gross. I brushed my teeth, put some undies and a face mask on (my skin […]

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The Black Dog.

I don’t know if I am the only person that falls for this trap but I felt like talking about it so let me know if it happens to you too. Medication I’ve struggled with depression on and off since I was young and been on various doses of Citalopram over the years. I’ve had […]

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Self isolating – completed!

What a horrible few weeks it has been. It’s such a scary time in the world as it is without having to worry about yourself and your family being put at risk by the pandemic. Learning family members had tested positive was really hard as you are immediately worried about their health and then the […]

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