It was my sisters 30th birthday, she went away for a week but had a big old gathering when she returned to celebrate with our very large extended family. I was really sad that I missed her actual birthday the day before, but was struggling with some pains and wasn’t sure I could make it. […]Read More Celebration or confrontation..
Ok so my previous post was pretty doom and gloom, but that’s how I’ve been feeling and that’s ok. This morning I was dreading my appointment to try some hairstyles for the wedding but silly old me, I’ve never left my hairdressers anything but happy. We had a good natter, looked at some pictures for […]Read More Bridal hair trial today.
When you’re young you have such firm ideas of how life should go. What age makes you a grown up, what it is that grown ups do.. houses, kids, marriages, jobs. I was so convinced that by my mid 20’s I would be a mother. All my life I’ve been great with kids, the go […]Read More Am I lost?
Next up in the joyous dressing spotlight series is Ruby Red Vintage! This account was one I saw every now and then in my.. intro? to joyous dressing. At the time I was feeling a little overwhelmed with things so I’d stopped following people for a bit. It didn’t take long for me to think […]Read More Joyous dressing spotlight – Ruby Red Vintage
I’m not sure if I’ve really mentioned this other than in my PTSD specific posts, but I have been signed off work since the end of January/beginning of Feb. I’m a little hazy on the specific date but it was around that time. I’d been struggling mentally for a while, and though I was already […]Read More Return to work
Wilde Mode are an independent Vegan brand based in Dundee, Scotland. The company was founded in August 2018 and launched in January 2019. Deborah Breen (Debz), the founder of Wilde Mode began the journey after a struggle with her mental health. The company prides themselves on having a 100% carbon neutral footprint. The packaging company […]Read More What’s in the box?! – Wilde Mode Review
I have suffered with depression, anxiety and ptsd for a long time. I try to be honest about my mental health but even when I wasn’t as forthcoming, I really enjoyed doing what I could to help other people with their struggles, whether it was just being a shoulder to cry on, buying their favourite […]Read More Doing an Instagram giveaway – mental health inspired.
Happy Bank Holiday Monday to you all, or just Monday if it’s not a bank holiday for you, from me and the spot on my chin that won’t go away! I actually have several all on my chin at the moment but only one central and eye catching, thanks hormones! I typically hate pictures of […]Read More Monday Monday!
I wanted to go out somewhere nice with the dog, somewhere we would have to drive to so we could both be in nature and have fun exploring. The weather is certainly good for it, though me being me I’d have to lather on the factor 50 before we left. I woke up to my […]Read More Not the Sunday I was expecting.
So, I’ve had a shower for the first time since Sunday. Is that gross? Sure. Did I smell? Absolutely. Does knowing that change anything? No, depression doesn’t care, and you pretty much just feel worse cause you know you’re being gross. I brushed my teeth, put some undies and a face mask on (my skin […]Read More Showering is hard these days.
I’ve had 7 sessions, and my scores have gone from 9/10 to 5. This might not sound like a lot but it is a huge difference in my day to day life. It’s changed how I think about my trauma, how I feel about it, how I deal with flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. It’s been […]Read More New diagnosis, acknowledging and asking for help with PTSD – part three.
Opening up was difficult after holding everything in for so long, but it was also freeing to finally tell someone. It was an emotional conversation, I cried, we cuddled together, and once I was done speaking we stayed that way for a while. I was physically and mentally drained, and I can’t imagine how it […]Read More New diagnosis, acknowledging and asking for help with PTSD – part two.
I don’t know if I am the only person that falls for this trap but I felt like talking about it so let me know if it happens to you too. Medication I’ve struggled with depression on and off since I was young and been on various doses of Citalopram over the years. I’ve had […]Read More The Black Dog.