Celebration or confrontation..

It was my sisters 30th birthday, she went away for a week but had a big old gathering when she returned to celebrate with our very large extended family. I was really sad that I missed her actual birthday the day before, but was struggling with some pains and wasn’t sure I could make it. […]

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Bridal hair trial today.

Ok so my previous post was pretty doom and gloom, but that’s how I’ve been feeling and that’s ok. This morning I was dreading my appointment to try some hairstyles for the wedding but silly old me, I’ve never left my hairdressers anything but happy. We had a good natter, looked at some pictures for […]

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Am I lost?

When you’re young you have such firm ideas of how life should go. What age makes you a grown up, what it is that grown ups do.. houses, kids, marriages, jobs. I was so convinced that by my mid 20’s I would be a mother. All my life I’ve been great with kids, the go […]

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Return to work

I’m not sure if I’ve really mentioned this other than in my PTSD specific posts, but I have been signed off work since the end of January/beginning of Feb. I’m a little hazy on the specific date but it was around that time. I’d been struggling mentally for a while, and though I was already […]

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Monday Monday!

Happy Bank Holiday Monday to you all, or just Monday if it’s not a bank holiday for you, from me and the spot on my chin that won’t go away! I actually have several all on my chin at the moment but only one central and eye catching, thanks hormones! I typically hate pictures of […]

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Showering is hard these days.

So, I’ve had a shower for the first time since Sunday. Is that gross? Sure. Did I smell? Absolutely. Does knowing that change anything? No, depression doesn’t care, and you pretty much just feel worse cause you know you’re being gross. I brushed my teeth, put some undies and a face mask on (my skin […]

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The Black Dog.

I don’t know if I am the only person that falls for this trap but I felt like talking about it so let me know if it happens to you too. Medication I’ve struggled with depression on and off since I was young and been on various doses of Citalopram over the years. I’ve had […]

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