I think it’s important both mentally and physically for me to remember to take my time, and rest when my body needs it, especially after going through so much the last year or so or I’ll only end up hurting myself again.Read More Running out of steam.
Do you ever wake up and feel productive? No, me neither.. but I did on Monday for some reason.Read More Productive couple days!
You ever sit down to eat your dinner and think, ooh I could go for a good horror movie right about now? I do, alot! I was having a look on Netflix and I saw Boogeyman, something I’d watched many a time when I was a little younger. It was released in 2005, which makes […]Read More Boogeyman
Eighteen months ago I tried to overdose on sleeping pills and antidepressants so that everything would stop. Six months ago I broke down. I got diagnosed with PTSD and opened up about my trauma for the first time. I’m not going to say life is sunshine and rainbows now because it isn’t.. well sometimes it […]Read More So happy I didn’t succeed.
Mostly I just hope that the pain eases off, it sorts my insides out as needed and that I don’t poop my pants.Read More A very painful week.
I’ve talked about joyous dressing alot on here, I am a big fan, though I am always a little nervous about joining in with some of the challenges. I love to see the outfits and the stories and the inspiration people come up with, and always promise myself that next time I’ll really go for […]Read More Faerie core
It was my sisters 30th birthday, she went away for a week but had a big old gathering when she returned to celebrate with our very large extended family. I was really sad that I missed her actual birthday the day before, but was struggling with some pains and wasn’t sure I could make it. […]Read More Celebration or confrontation..
So I’m home alone while my partner is gone for the week, dog sitting for his parents. I had just reheated some pasta for my dinner and wanted to put something on that wasn’t going to need a big emotional investment from me, so I went to comedies on Prime and ended up selecting No […]Read More No strings attached.
Charlie came to live with us five years ago today! He was around nine months old, a friend of my uncle had gotten him for his family but long story short they couldn’t keep him. That first week was terrifying, he cried, I cried, wondered if I’d taken on too much. But as hard as […]Read More Five years today.
I spent most of my day looking at online abuse and racism and reporting as much as possible. I feel angry, sad and disappointed in my fellow human beings that this shit is tolerated, let alone gotten away with over something they want to call the beautiful game?! There is a screenshot of a point […]Read More Being human right now is exhausting.
Ok so my previous post was pretty doom and gloom, but that’s how I’ve been feeling and that’s ok. This morning I was dreading my appointment to try some hairstyles for the wedding but silly old me, I’ve never left my hairdressers anything but happy. We had a good natter, looked at some pictures for […]Read More Bridal hair trial today.
When you’re young you have such firm ideas of how life should go. What age makes you a grown up, what it is that grown ups do.. houses, kids, marriages, jobs. I was so convinced that by my mid 20’s I would be a mother. All my life I’ve been great with kids, the go […]Read More Am I lost?
Next up in the joyous dressing spotlight series is Ruby Red Vintage! This account was one I saw every now and then in my.. intro? to joyous dressing. At the time I was feeling a little overwhelmed with things so I’d stopped following people for a bit. It didn’t take long for me to think […]Read More Joyous dressing spotlight – Ruby Red Vintage
I’m not sure if I’ve really mentioned this other than in my PTSD specific posts, but I have been signed off work since the end of January/beginning of Feb. I’m a little hazy on the specific date but it was around that time. I’d been struggling mentally for a while, and though I was already […]Read More Return to work
I didn’t do any affirmations for two or three weeks, it felt like too much pressure, but I think it was because I had had a relapse of some of my more intense PTSD symptoms so I just had to give myself the time and space needed to cope, and deal with those. ‘I am […]Read More Affirmations